It is 4:00 and leaving early from work to see the baby. I am so excited to see what he looks like. i am very giddy. I am honored to be able to see him in the hospital.
I was overwhelmed when I saw Mia for the first time, I think I am going to be the same with him.
Its just I talk to Jacki almost everyday sometime twice and sometimes thrice so I know everything that happens during her pregnancy which makes me all the more excited to finally meet him.
Yeah!!!!
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Friday, April 25, 2008
New Background for new baby Alex
Yeah I am waiting patiently for a call from Jacki about her new baby. So I changed the color in lieu of the new little baby.
I hope she is doing alright and hasn't had to go through much pain yet.
She is going to be so happy that he is out!!
I hope she is doing alright and hasn't had to go through much pain yet.
She is going to be so happy that he is out!!
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Waiting to see Alex and Jase
This seems appropriate today because Jacki is going to have a baby tomorrow is all things go well. She is being induced early in the morning.
I can't wait to meet these babies. Jase is freaking adorable and I can't wait to hold him. Jayme you went through so much to conceive him and so much just to take him home. But I am so happy he is home safe with you now. Its so cool that they are going to be the same age.
Alleexx...I would say to Jackis belly to get him moving. I think I talked to Mia more in the womb, but you have to be careful how close you get to a very pregnant womans belly, you could lose something. He has been torturing Jacki for awhile now trying to kick his way out. I am so excited to see what he looks like and who he looks like. I was just as excited to see Jase and he fits Jason Jr. I do still see some Jayme in there. He reminds me of Bailey as a baby.
My two wonderful friends are having beautiful babies and I have the upmost respect for the two of you and how as a woman we have these babies taking over our bodies. Yeah I am so excited.
What a Blessing!
I can't wait to meet these babies. Jase is freaking adorable and I can't wait to hold him. Jayme you went through so much to conceive him and so much just to take him home. But I am so happy he is home safe with you now. Its so cool that they are going to be the same age.
Alleexx...I would say to Jackis belly to get him moving. I think I talked to Mia more in the womb, but you have to be careful how close you get to a very pregnant womans belly, you could lose something. He has been torturing Jacki for awhile now trying to kick his way out. I am so excited to see what he looks like and who he looks like. I was just as excited to see Jase and he fits Jason Jr. I do still see some Jayme in there. He reminds me of Bailey as a baby.
My two wonderful friends are having beautiful babies and I have the upmost respect for the two of you and how as a woman we have these babies taking over our bodies. Yeah I am so excited.
What a Blessing!
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
My Dr's Appointment, whole story, everyone has gotten parts and pieces
2 weeks ago I found a lump in my breast. I actually was in the crest hill house at the time. I was taken back by it, I have never found anything in my boobs before. So I freaked for a second and decided to wait to see if it goes down after my period. Well I went through the move thinking about it in my spare time and checking it. I had not told anyone, even Dennis about it. So On Thursday night of my first week in my moms house I was in the shower and it felt like a ping pong ball. I about threw up. I went in my bedroom and thought about telling Dennis on the phone. Instead i called him and asked what he was doing the next day. I couldn't do it. So of course I didn't get good sleep and was supposed to go to work the next day. I couldn't risk it. So I called off. I told my mom I had a Dr's appointment when she asked if I was going to work. So I am secretly trying to call my Dr and they were fucking close. WHAt, give me a break. So I Sarah and had to tell her. I was trying not to get upset on the phone, because I am freaking out. She told me of a Dr. in her office that was nice, she wasn't a OB but did the exams. I called made an appointment and prepared myself. My mom never left for work, damn, I didn't want to get confronted. And I did.
She usually will freak out and I didn't need that, i was trying to stay calm. I am really glad I did talk to her. She said that she had a water filled cyst one time. So everything that happens to my mom usually happens to me. So that is what I keep in my head to keep me sane.
Went to my appointment and had to give my whole family history. She did feel it, but wanted me to get off of the pill so i had no hormones in my system. I had to force a period. Ooooh fun. Also no birth control so no nookie. I left with a appointment the about 10 days later. I didn't want to wait and think about it.
So all of the time went by I tried not to think about it at all, But sometimes my mind would take over.
Day of, I had an early ass appointment maybe 7:00am, now this is in Naperville, its a trek from Wilmington. I made it on time and was pretty calm. I walk in and I though I walked into the wrong place it looked like a spa. So I told the receptionbitch that I had a 7:00 appointment. with a bitchy attitude she say "im gonna need a name" holy shit are you fucking kidding me I am coming to see if I could possibly have cancer and you give me attitude. Bad taste in my mouth. So I go sit in this room which was set up like a living room with cushy seats and paintings of women with no clothes on on the walls. I couldn't see there junk, whatever. So at this moment I freak,
I am going to have an anxiety attack. I was the first in the waiting room but them two other women came in. All I could think about was if those women had breast cancer or were checking it and which one of us were going to get horrible news today. I also thought about my aunt who died of breast cancer last year. I kept thinking that she was sitting in a place like this and she got horrible news. Seriously I was on the verge of crying, i couldn't look at anybody. Dennis really wanted to go with me, but I think it would of made it worse.
I get called. I have to take off the upper part of my clothes and put on the softest robe I have ever felt on. Then I get to sit and wait more, with more painting of women. Come on give me a break. I knew it all was going to happen any second and stayed strong. I also was not going to sit on the table yet. I chose to sit on the chair on top of my clothes. I saw the ultrasound machine and tried not to look at it.
So in she comes tells me to get on table and lay down, turns down the lights which was nice and put the warm goo on my boob and then continue to molest my boobs for what felt like forever. I was painful at times also. toward the end I started getting cold and shivering, I mean the warm goo turned into cold goo. Either way she placed one paper towel on my chest and I had to clean myself off. I need more than one so I asked and she left. she said don't get dressed and stay on the table. It wasn't much longer and the Dr. arrived.
Oh lord, what is she going to say. She tells me to point to the spot and she puts more goo on me and shows me on the screen this huge black spot. She tells me its fine its a fluid filled cyst. Relief. Thats it just a cyst. She tells me I need to cut back on the caffeine big time. She said theres nothing to worry about and it should go away. I get dresses and I receive a piece of paper with boxes with saying next to them mine said "non cancerous". I could of been the next box down.
So out the door I go and receptionbitch says bye and I ignore her. Then I almost get hit bye a car, make that a mini van. I don't know if she wasn't looking but I was looking at her and telling her some kind words. Damn bitch. So in my car sit down exhale look at my paper and start balling. It is surprising. I was able to push it all back and hold it I guess. The other things was that my aunt wasn't this lucky. I was happy for me but sad for her even though shes in heaven.
It was a scary thing that i don't want to go through again. I am grateful I am okay. Of course Sarah was the first to hear above everyone else. She found out about my lump first.
I know this is long but this is what I felt in these couple weeks of just not knowing.
She usually will freak out and I didn't need that, i was trying to stay calm. I am really glad I did talk to her. She said that she had a water filled cyst one time. So everything that happens to my mom usually happens to me. So that is what I keep in my head to keep me sane.
Went to my appointment and had to give my whole family history. She did feel it, but wanted me to get off of the pill so i had no hormones in my system. I had to force a period. Ooooh fun. Also no birth control so no nookie. I left with a appointment the about 10 days later. I didn't want to wait and think about it.
So all of the time went by I tried not to think about it at all, But sometimes my mind would take over.
Day of, I had an early ass appointment maybe 7:00am, now this is in Naperville, its a trek from Wilmington. I made it on time and was pretty calm. I walk in and I though I walked into the wrong place it looked like a spa. So I told the receptionbitch that I had a 7:00 appointment. with a bitchy attitude she say "im gonna need a name" holy shit are you fucking kidding me I am coming to see if I could possibly have cancer and you give me attitude. Bad taste in my mouth. So I go sit in this room which was set up like a living room with cushy seats and paintings of women with no clothes on on the walls. I couldn't see there junk, whatever. So at this moment I freak,
I am going to have an anxiety attack. I was the first in the waiting room but them two other women came in. All I could think about was if those women had breast cancer or were checking it and which one of us were going to get horrible news today. I also thought about my aunt who died of breast cancer last year. I kept thinking that she was sitting in a place like this and she got horrible news. Seriously I was on the verge of crying, i couldn't look at anybody. Dennis really wanted to go with me, but I think it would of made it worse.
I get called. I have to take off the upper part of my clothes and put on the softest robe I have ever felt on. Then I get to sit and wait more, with more painting of women. Come on give me a break. I knew it all was going to happen any second and stayed strong. I also was not going to sit on the table yet. I chose to sit on the chair on top of my clothes. I saw the ultrasound machine and tried not to look at it.
So in she comes tells me to get on table and lay down, turns down the lights which was nice and put the warm goo on my boob and then continue to molest my boobs for what felt like forever. I was painful at times also. toward the end I started getting cold and shivering, I mean the warm goo turned into cold goo. Either way she placed one paper towel on my chest and I had to clean myself off. I need more than one so I asked and she left. she said don't get dressed and stay on the table. It wasn't much longer and the Dr. arrived.
Oh lord, what is she going to say. She tells me to point to the spot and she puts more goo on me and shows me on the screen this huge black spot. She tells me its fine its a fluid filled cyst. Relief. Thats it just a cyst. She tells me I need to cut back on the caffeine big time. She said theres nothing to worry about and it should go away. I get dresses and I receive a piece of paper with boxes with saying next to them mine said "non cancerous". I could of been the next box down.
So out the door I go and receptionbitch says bye and I ignore her. Then I almost get hit bye a car, make that a mini van. I don't know if she wasn't looking but I was looking at her and telling her some kind words. Damn bitch. So in my car sit down exhale look at my paper and start balling. It is surprising. I was able to push it all back and hold it I guess. The other things was that my aunt wasn't this lucky. I was happy for me but sad for her even though shes in heaven.
It was a scary thing that i don't want to go through again. I am grateful I am okay. Of course Sarah was the first to hear above everyone else. She found out about my lump first.
I know this is long but this is what I felt in these couple weeks of just not knowing.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Things I need to blog about......soon
My Dr.'s appointment
Dennis and the AirForce
My new room
My new drive to work
Living with my mom and sister
Hating Wilmington and everything that comes with it
Day with Jacki and Mia
Waiting to Meet Alex and Jase
Being Positive
Wow I should stop thinking the list is getting long.
So this week I will update everyone on me.
Dennis and the AirForce
My new room
My new drive to work
Living with my mom and sister
Hating Wilmington and everything that comes with it
Day with Jacki and Mia
Waiting to Meet Alex and Jase
Being Positive
Wow I should stop thinking the list is getting long.
So this week I will update everyone on me.
Busy day....its only 9:30
The funny thing is when I lived in Crest Hill sometimes I would get here about 15mins ago or only been here for a half hour at this point. I would be so tired and had no contact with the world.
Now I have to get up early enough to give me time for traffic on 55. I haven't had any delays yet but I need to be careful.
I woke up, took a shower,(I usually take them at night) made my lunch(again do this at night) made sure I had everything I needed for work and blew dryed my hair. That is alot for me in the morning. I also had a small conversation with Lindsay and mom.
Drove to work(I will break down in another blog) Ate my banana and spoke to Dennis on the phone.
Got to work Spoke to Dennis again made oatmeal and finished my makeup, now I am checking blogs and blogging .
I am much more awake than I should be, I got about 5 hours sleep.
So I know Jacki runs circles around me by this time with Mia.
I am just used to crawling out of bed and barely making it to work probably still half asleep.
Now I have to get up early enough to give me time for traffic on 55. I haven't had any delays yet but I need to be careful.
I woke up, took a shower,(I usually take them at night) made my lunch(again do this at night) made sure I had everything I needed for work and blew dryed my hair. That is alot for me in the morning. I also had a small conversation with Lindsay and mom.
Drove to work(I will break down in another blog) Ate my banana and spoke to Dennis on the phone.
Got to work Spoke to Dennis again made oatmeal and finished my makeup, now I am checking blogs and blogging .
I am much more awake than I should be, I got about 5 hours sleep.
So I know Jacki runs circles around me by this time with Mia.
I am just used to crawling out of bed and barely making it to work probably still half asleep.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Things I am thinking about...
My Dr. Appt on the 14th. I just talked to them and they screwed up my scheduling so I went from 2:30pm to 7:30am. The Dr. is in Naperville. Great thats a early morning. I haven't been thinking about this appt too much but under the surface I'm a little scared.
Dennis. He is in Indiana with his father visiting his Grandmother. She had a mini stroke and is in a recovery center/assisted living. He is taking this really hard and wants to be strong for his dad. I really hope everything is okay with her. I also hope she remembers him, his cousin said she was having boughts of forgetting. So he has been on my mind constantly. i spoke to him when he got there, but he hadn't seen her yet.
Jayme and Jase. I wish them both well. I know he will make a full recovery and be home with mom. I am thinking about her and how strong she is for him.
Flooding in my room. Sounds crazy but my moms room which is now my room flooded at one time. Too much rain and the house being on sand are bad together. I have too much stuff in that room right now for that to happen.
What I will make for dinner. I am working until 8:30, because I needed to sleep in a little. I didn't get to sleep until 1:00am again. So I am wondering how I will feel about heating or cooking anything at 10:00pm tonight when I get home.
Jacki and extended family I hope that her extended family that is going through a crisis right now can get through it. And I hope that it doesn't bother Jacki and her mom Sue too much, as far as stress and stuff. No more Braxtons jumping on the bed. i made a funny.
I wanna watch my BB9. So I am going to attempt it. I hope it works okay.
Bye everyone.
Dennis. He is in Indiana with his father visiting his Grandmother. She had a mini stroke and is in a recovery center/assisted living. He is taking this really hard and wants to be strong for his dad. I really hope everything is okay with her. I also hope she remembers him, his cousin said she was having boughts of forgetting. So he has been on my mind constantly. i spoke to him when he got there, but he hadn't seen her yet.
Jayme and Jase. I wish them both well. I know he will make a full recovery and be home with mom. I am thinking about her and how strong she is for him.
Flooding in my room. Sounds crazy but my moms room which is now my room flooded at one time. Too much rain and the house being on sand are bad together. I have too much stuff in that room right now for that to happen.
What I will make for dinner. I am working until 8:30, because I needed to sleep in a little. I didn't get to sleep until 1:00am again. So I am wondering how I will feel about heating or cooking anything at 10:00pm tonight when I get home.
Jacki and extended family I hope that her extended family that is going through a crisis right now can get through it. And I hope that it doesn't bother Jacki and her mom Sue too much, as far as stress and stuff. No more Braxtons jumping on the bed. i made a funny.
I wanna watch my BB9. So I am going to attempt it. I hope it works okay.
Bye everyone.
So happy..car back in order
I have a radio, a clock, keyless entry and interior lights. yes yes yes.
It was a stupid fuse, all of that crap. It was called Room LP. Yeah that tells it all.
The reason i waited so long was I was going to have to pull every fuse out and check them.
So Sarah picks up her car from the shop, and none of these things work for her, so she turns around and they change the one little 15 amp fuse. We both have Hyundia's.
I am in heaven having everything back again. weeeee!!!!!!!!
It was a stupid fuse, all of that crap. It was called Room LP. Yeah that tells it all.
The reason i waited so long was I was going to have to pull every fuse out and check them.
So Sarah picks up her car from the shop, and none of these things work for her, so she turns around and they change the one little 15 amp fuse. We both have Hyundia's.
I am in heaven having everything back again. weeeee!!!!!!!!
Congratulations Jayme and Jason
You guys are so blessed to have the adorable little one in the world with you. It is wonderful news that Baby Jase is doing better, make that awesome. I just wanted to let you know how amazing you are. This has got to be a tough time, but you are supermom.
I wish Jase a full recovery very very soon so you guys get to start your lives together.
I had to take your C section off of my calendar.
-Jaymes baby Jase had some breathing problems right after birth, they found out later that he had pneumonia. He is doing awesome and is breathing by himself now. She had the baby on the 4th and was finally able to hold him today. Please keep the family in your prayers.
I wish Jase a full recovery very very soon so you guys get to start your lives together.
I had to take your C section off of my calendar.
-Jaymes baby Jase had some breathing problems right after birth, they found out later that he had pneumonia. He is doing awesome and is breathing by himself now. She had the baby on the 4th and was finally able to hold him today. Please keep the family in your prayers.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Summary of time away
Friday - called in went to DR. met up with Sarah did shopping and watched movie
Sat - OFF Jacki's surprised baby shower. She was surprised and we all had a nice time. Saw Dennis for 30 mins then worked with my dad for 2 hours.
Sun - Slept in, Gave Dennis a haircut, came home to get ready, left again for Dennis's and received call that cat ate fish, Lindsay crying. So I go back home to possibly find fish, Find the fish on floor behind the bed,(moms fish) pick it up it is still somewhat alive, turn into fishie ER and try to keep it alive in the water. Either way mom comes home and me and Dennis finally leave to go eat at TGI Fridays. We have a nice meal, Dennis is exhausted and we do some errand running and come home. But not without his mother drama. I drop him off to be a Taxi for his mother and he calls me an hour later. We hang out for a little bit, Then I get the fuck out of there before any shit hits the fan.
Mon - Wake up late again. Plan on Dennis helping me with my room. I also planned on calling everyone (17) to change addresses. Took all freaking morning. By the time Dennis arrived, I had time to get some lunch and take a shower. Dennis watched a movie during. I left for Braidwood to watch Lindsay at her Track meet. I planned on leaving from Braidwood and driving to Mokena for Diva night. Didn't happen, got a stomachache, not a fun one. Me and Sarah grabbed a bite and I went home to do nothing.
Tues - Slept in- I am catching up on some much needed sleep by the way. Got up got ready. balanced checking, did two loads of my laundry. Dennis received a call about his Grandmother not doing too good. He was all jacked up about that. He came over for a little bit to eat lunch. Then left a see his dad. Its his dads mother. I picked up Lindsay from track practice and went out to Aldi in joliet to get food. Me and Linds went to Steak and Shake then too see Sarah at Frosty Tips. She wasn't happy about working. Went home and didn't do anything constructive because i was worn out. I did get caught up on BB9 and Survivor. yay for On Demand.
So I was as you can see a busy beaver. My room is still full of boxes and bins and nothing is in order. maybe I will have more luck next week.
Sat - OFF Jacki's surprised baby shower. She was surprised and we all had a nice time. Saw Dennis for 30 mins then worked with my dad for 2 hours.
Sun - Slept in, Gave Dennis a haircut, came home to get ready, left again for Dennis's and received call that cat ate fish, Lindsay crying. So I go back home to possibly find fish, Find the fish on floor behind the bed,(moms fish) pick it up it is still somewhat alive, turn into fishie ER and try to keep it alive in the water. Either way mom comes home and me and Dennis finally leave to go eat at TGI Fridays. We have a nice meal, Dennis is exhausted and we do some errand running and come home. But not without his mother drama. I drop him off to be a Taxi for his mother and he calls me an hour later. We hang out for a little bit, Then I get the fuck out of there before any shit hits the fan.
Mon - Wake up late again. Plan on Dennis helping me with my room. I also planned on calling everyone (17) to change addresses. Took all freaking morning. By the time Dennis arrived, I had time to get some lunch and take a shower. Dennis watched a movie during. I left for Braidwood to watch Lindsay at her Track meet. I planned on leaving from Braidwood and driving to Mokena for Diva night. Didn't happen, got a stomachache, not a fun one. Me and Sarah grabbed a bite and I went home to do nothing.
Tues - Slept in- I am catching up on some much needed sleep by the way. Got up got ready. balanced checking, did two loads of my laundry. Dennis received a call about his Grandmother not doing too good. He was all jacked up about that. He came over for a little bit to eat lunch. Then left a see his dad. Its his dads mother. I picked up Lindsay from track practice and went out to Aldi in joliet to get food. Me and Linds went to Steak and Shake then too see Sarah at Frosty Tips. She wasn't happy about working. Went home and didn't do anything constructive because i was worn out. I did get caught up on BB9 and Survivor. yay for On Demand.
So I was as you can see a busy beaver. My room is still full of boxes and bins and nothing is in order. maybe I will have more luck next week.
I ate my oatmeal with a fork
Thats how my day started here at Hollywood. YAYAYA!!
Whatever. Someone stole my fucking spoon, nice. I am gone for awhile and whoosh bye bye spoon. Over it for now, until I have to eat my applesauce, hmmmm.
It took me about an hour and 15 mins to get to work. I left my house @ 6:54 and arrived @ 8:07. It was a pretty good drive. I get stopped up in Plainfield.
I went to sleep at 1:00ish because I wasn't tired and the alarm went off at 5:45. Of course I hit the snooze a million times. I am slowly getting used to this new setup.
So THINK POSITIVE is my new motto. I am looking forward to a easy day. My tummy is a little crappy today. So I don't need extra stress or running around.
Yay have a good day.
Whatever. Someone stole my fucking spoon, nice. I am gone for awhile and whoosh bye bye spoon. Over it for now, until I have to eat my applesauce, hmmmm.
It took me about an hour and 15 mins to get to work. I left my house @ 6:54 and arrived @ 8:07. It was a pretty good drive. I get stopped up in Plainfield.
I went to sleep at 1:00ish because I wasn't tired and the alarm went off at 5:45. Of course I hit the snooze a million times. I am slowly getting used to this new setup.
So THINK POSITIVE is my new motto. I am looking forward to a easy day. My tummy is a little crappy today. So I don't need extra stress or running around.
Yay have a good day.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Salvation Army
Thank God, they caught them. But in the process a full length mirror fell onto Dennis. His head and arm hurt. But he wasn't cut. I feel bad for him he has been going all week with this move. Its one thing after another.
I do got to say his mother has been a help but she just stresses us the fuck out most the time.
I flipped yesterday after my finger was jammed into something, I hadn't eaten and it was at lease 2:00. I just snapped started screaming as loud as I could and decicded to take it out on a clay pot I put my foot through it. This is why I need to eat.
I do got to say his mother has been a help but she just stresses us the fuck out most the time.
I flipped yesterday after my finger was jammed into something, I hadn't eaten and it was at lease 2:00. I just snapped started screaming as loud as I could and decicded to take it out on a clay pot I put my foot through it. This is why I need to eat.
RIP spikey
Spikey our fish died this morning. He didn't take the move too good. I am sure Dennis's mom going at it with a ice cube didn't help. She thought the fish was dying or something. Either way that was the last fish and it was Dennis's. No more fishies.
Think Positive
The Salvation Army is on there way to our house and there is no one there yet. Thinking Positive. I called them and Dennis is picking up the speed to get there. Fingers crossed.
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