No accumilation my ass. At 12:00 in Aurora it started snowing and kept snowing, Snow everywhere. I haven't seen it lately but the roads suck as they always do in Aurora.
They refuse to clear the roads, I don't know why either. I need to get my sled out to get home. It was very slushy and slippery when I was out at 1:00ish. It was still crappy at 3:30ish and now, i am going to go look hold on,haha, surprise still snowing. I talked to Sarah a little earlier and Plainfield and Joliet the snow had stopped and roadways were decent, you still had to be careful.
I have 2 more hours and just want to get home safe as always.
Maybe I should have skiis installed instead of tires for the winter.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Sick...again...boo
I got sick on Monday. Don't know where I got it but it seems that it is going around.
I drained down my throat Sunday night while I was sleeping and woke up sick and unhappy.
Made sure I went to the store to stock up on drugs. I have been drinking tons of water and Tea since then and even some orange juice.
I get into these coughing fits that suck and hurt. But I am feeling pretty good. It just needs to go away already.
The really cold weather is not helping the situation, especially when I need to walk across to the casino or sit in my car letting it warm up.
So Goodbye cold/cough/hack/sore throat please go away.
I drained down my throat Sunday night while I was sleeping and woke up sick and unhappy.
Made sure I went to the store to stock up on drugs. I have been drinking tons of water and Tea since then and even some orange juice.
I get into these coughing fits that suck and hurt. But I am feeling pretty good. It just needs to go away already.
The really cold weather is not helping the situation, especially when I need to walk across to the casino or sit in my car letting it warm up.
So Goodbye cold/cough/hack/sore throat please go away.
So an update on fun stuff I did...
27 Dresses: Very very funny. Its a good movie and I love Katherine anyways but she was funny and so was James Marsden. Not only was he funny but of course HOT. I laughed alot through the movie, I give it 4 stars. I don't even know how many stars there are on the chart, whatever.
I stayed at Sarah's and got ready for Wicked at her house the next day.
I had a hell of a time covering up the huge infestation that grew on my face. I had 4 big zits on my chin. I don't get clusters of zits and one was still under the skin and so painful. What the F. And I had 3 on my eyebrow line. I had never had this many and so big under the skin. Some thing went wrong somewhere. So it was a chore to cover and I took off my make-up once after putting it on to start over. Seriously am i 16 or something. On to Wicked
Wicked Day: So this was a girls day out. Lindsay is getting so big. She is 14 and just got her contacts and was wearing make-up. So was my mom. If you know my mom she doesn't wear make-up. Lindsay told her that she looked 2 years younger. HAHAHA! She's silly.
We had no problem getting there, we decided to take 55 straight in. I hate Mapquest by the way, it always takes you to 94. 94 is stupid and horrible to drive on. So we figured out how to get there from Lake Shore Drive, easy.
We parked at Wicked, walked two blocks and caught a cab to Cheesecake Factory, our favorite.
My mom got to sit in the front seat of the cab, wow. I was freaking out in the back, those cabs get so close to hitting the other cars and cabs, one of these days I am going to be in one that hits something.
We get to CF and get seating right away. We still don't know how, maybe our good looks, all of us redheads??? There were other people waiting and we walked right in. We may of taken someone elses seat, Oh well I guess.
So the fun part of dinner, The waiter comes to take my plate away and Sarah starts yelling, Sir you have someone choking. Still holding my plate, I look over and I am looking for someone choking someone else, funny, Not so much. A table kiddie korner to us in Sarah and Lindsays view. A young man starts choking and before the waiter made it over there, his friend started the Heimlick on him. Sarah saw the whole thing. He threw up then pulled the piece of food out of his mouth. Gross. Sarah was in shock, the look on her face said it all. I am glad I did not have to witness that before dessert. thank god for his friend.
Next we leave to catch a cab back and everyone was joking with me that I get to sit in the front seat as we were walking up the stairs. Sarah and Lindsay cross the street to catch the cab and me and mom follow almost getting hit by a car because I slipped on the street. i didn't fall but it slowed me down. I got to sit in the front. Great.
Now I know that stop, swerve, speed up, etc. The girls are trying not to laugh. So I am trying not to laugh as a clutch my purse and close my eyes. This guys was a crazy speed racer driver. Hey so am I but I can't watch it. I swear we were going at least 50 or 60 on Wacker. AHHHH!
Then there is the crazy bum outside of Wicked. Short story, Someone hit the bum in the face, bum drops his licqour(his dinner). Now he is angry. Well he is yelling at people walking by and getting in there face. My main concern was for Lindsay. So I blocked her and a nice man blocked us. We didn't all fit in the door, so we were hanging out.
Wicked: I loved it. They put on an awesome show, I love the props and special effects. There was a great story line that fit with the Wizard of OZ. They have amazing voices. I only wish i could sing like them. Glinda's personality is hilarious. I am so happy I was able to see this show it was good all the way back in the nose bleed seats.
The Oriental Theatre is Gorgeous also. Very pretty and colorful. More than the Rialto as far as color.
So no problems getting home and stayed at Sarahs for another night.
Only thing that sucks is that we only got a couple of pics like 2 or 3. Sarahs camera dies, i forgot mine and Moms and Lindsays weren't charged. Come on people charge up the night before.
I stayed at Sarah's and got ready for Wicked at her house the next day.
I had a hell of a time covering up the huge infestation that grew on my face. I had 4 big zits on my chin. I don't get clusters of zits and one was still under the skin and so painful. What the F. And I had 3 on my eyebrow line. I had never had this many and so big under the skin. Some thing went wrong somewhere. So it was a chore to cover and I took off my make-up once after putting it on to start over. Seriously am i 16 or something. On to Wicked
Wicked Day: So this was a girls day out. Lindsay is getting so big. She is 14 and just got her contacts and was wearing make-up. So was my mom. If you know my mom she doesn't wear make-up. Lindsay told her that she looked 2 years younger. HAHAHA! She's silly.
We had no problem getting there, we decided to take 55 straight in. I hate Mapquest by the way, it always takes you to 94. 94 is stupid and horrible to drive on. So we figured out how to get there from Lake Shore Drive, easy.
We parked at Wicked, walked two blocks and caught a cab to Cheesecake Factory, our favorite.
My mom got to sit in the front seat of the cab, wow. I was freaking out in the back, those cabs get so close to hitting the other cars and cabs, one of these days I am going to be in one that hits something.
We get to CF and get seating right away. We still don't know how, maybe our good looks, all of us redheads??? There were other people waiting and we walked right in. We may of taken someone elses seat, Oh well I guess.
So the fun part of dinner, The waiter comes to take my plate away and Sarah starts yelling, Sir you have someone choking. Still holding my plate, I look over and I am looking for someone choking someone else, funny, Not so much. A table kiddie korner to us in Sarah and Lindsays view. A young man starts choking and before the waiter made it over there, his friend started the Heimlick on him. Sarah saw the whole thing. He threw up then pulled the piece of food out of his mouth. Gross. Sarah was in shock, the look on her face said it all. I am glad I did not have to witness that before dessert. thank god for his friend.
Next we leave to catch a cab back and everyone was joking with me that I get to sit in the front seat as we were walking up the stairs. Sarah and Lindsay cross the street to catch the cab and me and mom follow almost getting hit by a car because I slipped on the street. i didn't fall but it slowed me down. I got to sit in the front. Great.
Now I know that stop, swerve, speed up, etc. The girls are trying not to laugh. So I am trying not to laugh as a clutch my purse and close my eyes. This guys was a crazy speed racer driver. Hey so am I but I can't watch it. I swear we were going at least 50 or 60 on Wacker. AHHHH!
Then there is the crazy bum outside of Wicked. Short story, Someone hit the bum in the face, bum drops his licqour(his dinner). Now he is angry. Well he is yelling at people walking by and getting in there face. My main concern was for Lindsay. So I blocked her and a nice man blocked us. We didn't all fit in the door, so we were hanging out.
Wicked: I loved it. They put on an awesome show, I love the props and special effects. There was a great story line that fit with the Wizard of OZ. They have amazing voices. I only wish i could sing like them. Glinda's personality is hilarious. I am so happy I was able to see this show it was good all the way back in the nose bleed seats.
The Oriental Theatre is Gorgeous also. Very pretty and colorful. More than the Rialto as far as color.
So no problems getting home and stayed at Sarahs for another night.
Only thing that sucks is that we only got a couple of pics like 2 or 3. Sarahs camera dies, i forgot mine and Moms and Lindsays weren't charged. Come on people charge up the night before.
Winter sucks wheres Spring
Okay so horray, Weather forcasts are calling for up to 12 inches of snow accumliation over night.
Damn you Amy Freeze, she is the weather forcaster, She said she would be surprised is Joliet gets 10 -12 inches. Come On! Jeez!
The good thing is that hopefully I can get home before the sky falls in. Wow. That is all I am hoping for right now.
The next thing would be cleared streets in the morning. I might have to take the way through the cities because everywhere I drive is open to drifts. I just wanted to get through the week easily. I have to work five 11 hour shifts this week. I will be working Super Bowl.
So Unless there is a huge gust of wind that blows this weather some where else. We might as well bear down and take it.
Damn you Amy Freeze, she is the weather forcaster, She said she would be surprised is Joliet gets 10 -12 inches. Come On! Jeez!
The good thing is that hopefully I can get home before the sky falls in. Wow. That is all I am hoping for right now.
The next thing would be cleared streets in the morning. I might have to take the way through the cities because everywhere I drive is open to drifts. I just wanted to get through the week easily. I have to work five 11 hour shifts this week. I will be working Super Bowl.
So Unless there is a huge gust of wind that blows this weather some where else. We might as well bear down and take it.
Britney...is she finally gonna get some help
I just saw this morning that Britney was hospitalized, because she was a danger to herself.
Thank god, its bad but it is the only way she is going to get any help. It has to be forced.
Lately, its the Britney show everywhere you look and I believe they are all waiting for her to do something do horrific just to take a picture of it.
I slightly feel bad for the family, they kinda contributed to this but it sucks that she won't listen to them.
I hope she gets help and continues to take her meds. Because the downward spiral always ends bad.
Thank god, its bad but it is the only way she is going to get any help. It has to be forced.
Lately, its the Britney show everywhere you look and I believe they are all waiting for her to do something do horrific just to take a picture of it.
I slightly feel bad for the family, they kinda contributed to this but it sucks that she won't listen to them.
I hope she gets help and continues to take her meds. Because the downward spiral always ends bad.
Friday, January 25, 2008
Wicked...Tomorrow...
I am really excited to go see this play. I never have been to a play in Chicago for one. Sarah has already seen this and says it is funny. I like the wizard of Oz and this should be alot of fun and laughs.
My brother got me, Sarah, Mom, and Linds tickets so it will be a girls day. I took the day off, even though the show is later. If I have something planned I need the day off I don't care what time. I am sick of running around with my head cut off trying to get places.
Girls Day in Chicago seeing Wicked. I'm counting down the time. tick tock.
27 Dresses...
Me, Sarah, and Laura might go see this tonight after work. I love Katherine Heigl and James Marsden. So it should be a good movie. I don't know for sure if its going to happen yet. I'll find out later. Its the only movie out right now that I would want to see.
All that crazy killing stuff and monsters and zombies, not my cup of tea.
Just Comedies mostly.
So I 'll let everyone know what i think of it.
Men are like Apes...
So I have realize that men are actually closely related to apes. The big black ones.
My boss and a vendor were talking and I swear it turned into who could speak louder than the other. No one was listening or looking at the other one at times. They just talked louder and louder. So I pictured them out in the forest somewhere just making loud noises at each other.
Because I am sure thats as much as they got accomplished.
Im kinda tired and out of it...
Hmm I thought I got enough sleep. I am tired and feels like wore out. I haven't done anything to wear me out. I hope I am not getting sick or something. I feel fine right now. My nose is always dry, this weather is kicking my ass.
Nose is dry, which in turn gives me headaches.
My skin is dry, makes me itchy. I try to always put lotion on too.
I hate the cold weather, it makes my eyes water. I really hate that.
I hate being cold in general, then you get the shivers.
On another note; hooray I got paid. i am going to lunch today. I don't know where yet, I'm sure I'll figure it out. I have to go to the bank and possibly Walmart. It is Mexi-Walmart and it is always busy and crazy there. So we'll see???
Nose is dry, which in turn gives me headaches.
My skin is dry, makes me itchy. I try to always put lotion on too.
I hate the cold weather, it makes my eyes water. I really hate that.
I hate being cold in general, then you get the shivers.
On another note; hooray I got paid. i am going to lunch today. I don't know where yet, I'm sure I'll figure it out. I have to go to the bank and possibly Walmart. It is Mexi-Walmart and it is always busy and crazy there. So we'll see???
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Yay all by myself...
Wes is not in early today so I get the first half of the day to myself.
This is nice, no stress just hanging out. I mean I do have to go out in the horrible 0 degree cold to look at some computers but they can wait until day jobs are done.
I brought my awesome lunch of: Salami sandwich, sour cream and onion chips, Orange jello, and some cookies. Hopefully that does the job. And I thought I had mustard here at work so I will have to remember to steal some from Take Two Deli. So I won't be leaving today.
I froze my butt off this morning, I never know what I am walking into when I walk outside but the sun lied to me. Holy crap I had to put boxes in my truck and it was so cold a tear flew out of my eye. It probably froze in mid air.
When I got to work I almost started to hyperventilate. I park on the back of the 4th floor. I usually use the elevator that is close to my car but then I have to walk outside when I land on the 1st. floor. No thanks, so I walked across the parking garage. I think someone had been running their car on the 3rd floor for a very long time, because when I got to the other side of the parking garage I saw steam coming from a vent, well it wasn't steam, it was exhaust. Every time I breathed in it was stronger and I had to wait for the elevator. So I tried to take small breaths, that doesn't work well in the dead of winter. I was so happy to see the elevator open.
Its almost 11:00 hooray. I have to do some work, so I can come back and blog more.
This is nice, no stress just hanging out. I mean I do have to go out in the horrible 0 degree cold to look at some computers but they can wait until day jobs are done.
I brought my awesome lunch of: Salami sandwich, sour cream and onion chips, Orange jello, and some cookies. Hopefully that does the job. And I thought I had mustard here at work so I will have to remember to steal some from Take Two Deli. So I won't be leaving today.
I froze my butt off this morning, I never know what I am walking into when I walk outside but the sun lied to me. Holy crap I had to put boxes in my truck and it was so cold a tear flew out of my eye. It probably froze in mid air.
When I got to work I almost started to hyperventilate. I park on the back of the 4th floor. I usually use the elevator that is close to my car but then I have to walk outside when I land on the 1st. floor. No thanks, so I walked across the parking garage. I think someone had been running their car on the 3rd floor for a very long time, because when I got to the other side of the parking garage I saw steam coming from a vent, well it wasn't steam, it was exhaust. Every time I breathed in it was stronger and I had to wait for the elevator. So I tried to take small breaths, that doesn't work well in the dead of winter. I was so happy to see the elevator open.
Its almost 11:00 hooray. I have to do some work, so I can come back and blog more.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
I just posted like a freak
I posted 8 new and interesting topics. I have been posting since 8:30. I'm done for now.
Things I like to eat that are weird to some...
I have to have chips in my sandwiches. I love the crunchy sandwiches.
I dip my fries in mashed potatoes and gravy. Its good you should try it some time.
I need mustard onion pickle on my hot dogs and hamburgers.
I'm a mixer, I like to eat my mashed potatoes with the meat and vegetable on same bite. I'm not going to stir it together, that would be gross.
I have to have tons of mayo on my chicken sandwiches. Real Mayo a must.
I dip my pizza in ranch dressing. Not all pizzas though. It depends on the place or kind.
I put syrup on my scrambled eggs and hash browns. I also put ketchup on the other half of my hash browns the syrup and the ketchup can't touch, because that is gross. Sarah does this the same way as me.
I used to love ketchup on everything, my chicken nuggets, my sliced turkey or chicken sandwiches, eggs, hot dogs, Bologna, hamburgers.
If Ketchup comes anywhere near any of these now, I don't want it. I won't eat it.
There are some exceptions. McDonald's burgers can have it but not to much.
I dip my fries in mashed potatoes and gravy. Its good you should try it some time.
I need mustard onion pickle on my hot dogs and hamburgers.
I'm a mixer, I like to eat my mashed potatoes with the meat and vegetable on same bite. I'm not going to stir it together, that would be gross.
I have to have tons of mayo on my chicken sandwiches. Real Mayo a must.
I dip my pizza in ranch dressing. Not all pizzas though. It depends on the place or kind.
I put syrup on my scrambled eggs and hash browns. I also put ketchup on the other half of my hash browns the syrup and the ketchup can't touch, because that is gross. Sarah does this the same way as me.
I used to love ketchup on everything, my chicken nuggets, my sliced turkey or chicken sandwiches, eggs, hot dogs, Bologna, hamburgers.
If Ketchup comes anywhere near any of these now, I don't want it. I won't eat it.
There are some exceptions. McDonald's burgers can have it but not to much.
I miss...
Grandma and Grandpa: I really would of like to get to know them in my adult life. I was 14 when they passed way
My family circa 1979-1989: We were so happy and normal and not dysfunctional. We did things together. My parents probably weren't happy, but they did a good job of covering it up.
My House circa 1979-1989: Of course I love my childhood home, so many memories. It was a white house with olive shutters. The kitchen was also all done in olive. We had a huge pine tree in the front yard and a apple tree in the back. We climbed it alot. I remember mint growing and morning glories on the back porch. I also remember playing with fuzzy calipeters. We made apple pies with the apples off of the trees. I would love to be inside that house again.
Fyi: parents in general, you do have a huge part in your childs life, every decisions you make effects memories and how they remember there life an their personalities.
I would love to go back and not have my parents divorce and us all be a huge happy family. I wish I never had to live in Wilmington and my mom not be an alcoholic.
Enough of that cryfest.
Being young, being an adult sucks. I want to only worry about who is playing with my toys, or whats for lunch, or waiting to watch my favorite shows.
My family circa 1979-1989: We were so happy and normal and not dysfunctional. We did things together. My parents probably weren't happy, but they did a good job of covering it up.
My House circa 1979-1989: Of course I love my childhood home, so many memories. It was a white house with olive shutters. The kitchen was also all done in olive. We had a huge pine tree in the front yard and a apple tree in the back. We climbed it alot. I remember mint growing and morning glories on the back porch. I also remember playing with fuzzy calipeters. We made apple pies with the apples off of the trees. I would love to be inside that house again.
Fyi: parents in general, you do have a huge part in your childs life, every decisions you make effects memories and how they remember there life an their personalities.
I would love to go back and not have my parents divorce and us all be a huge happy family. I wish I never had to live in Wilmington and my mom not be an alcoholic.
Enough of that cryfest.
Being young, being an adult sucks. I want to only worry about who is playing with my toys, or whats for lunch, or waiting to watch my favorite shows.
Things from my childhood that made me happy
Jelly Shoes: I wore my so much I think I damaged my feet from them not fitting. I kept telling my mom they fit fine. I loved that they clicked.
Tiffany, I think were alone now, single: I think this is the only tape I had and I played it all of the time. There was even a dance that went with it.
MTV: I watched MTV at a very young age. I think because my mom was young. I loved music and loved to dance.
Ice Cream: If we were good we got to go to my dads store.
Daddy coming home: I got so excited to see him he worked alot. There is a picture of me running to see my dad after he came home. he is wearing his white outfit and driving his white van.
Being in charge: No matter what we played I had to be the teacher, the doctor, etc. You get the point.
A boy named Joey: I was in love with this boy at age 5 to 5th grade. We moved I was so sad. But I was infatuated. We sat next to each other in 4th grade. Best year of my child life. We got in trouble for talking alot.
Tiffany, I think were alone now, single: I think this is the only tape I had and I played it all of the time. There was even a dance that went with it.
MTV: I watched MTV at a very young age. I think because my mom was young. I loved music and loved to dance.
Ice Cream: If we were good we got to go to my dads store.
Daddy coming home: I got so excited to see him he worked alot. There is a picture of me running to see my dad after he came home. he is wearing his white outfit and driving his white van.
Being in charge: No matter what we played I had to be the teacher, the doctor, etc. You get the point.
A boy named Joey: I was in love with this boy at age 5 to 5th grade. We moved I was so sad. But I was infatuated. We sat next to each other in 4th grade. Best year of my child life. We got in trouble for talking alot.
Upcoming dates
Jan 21st: Meeting
Jan 23rd: Camp and Gaunlet starts
Jan 25th: Payday
Jan 26th: Off work. Going to Wicked with Sarah, Lindsay, and Mom
Feb 3rd: SuperBowl, I work days. I always work superbowl, superdike always takes it off. I need the overtime and I haven't been into football for a couple of years now.
Feb 6th: Rub-ons camp
Feb 8th: Payday with overtime on it.
Feb 14th: Valentines Day
Feb 20th: Camp
Feb 22nd: Sarah's B day, she wants to go to the Red-Headed Piano Bar.
Feb23rd: Take off work. If I am in Chicago I want today off
March 14th and 15th: Stampin Up Holland Seminar in Michigan
Jan 23rd: Camp and Gaunlet starts
Jan 25th: Payday
Jan 26th: Off work. Going to Wicked with Sarah, Lindsay, and Mom
Feb 3rd: SuperBowl, I work days. I always work superbowl, superdike always takes it off. I need the overtime and I haven't been into football for a couple of years now.
Feb 6th: Rub-ons camp
Feb 8th: Payday with overtime on it.
Feb 14th: Valentines Day
Feb 20th: Camp
Feb 22nd: Sarah's B day, she wants to go to the Red-Headed Piano Bar.
Feb23rd: Take off work. If I am in Chicago I want today off
March 14th and 15th: Stampin Up Holland Seminar in Michigan
Week to come...
Sunday: I plan on staying home and not being social I think. One of Dennis's childhood friends want to get together on Sunday.
I have met his wife a couple times, they now have a daughter together, oh did I mention he is one of my first boyfriends. Its a little weird, I mean I was in eight grade and we made out alot, because that is what you do when you are that young.
We have no money and I don't know if I feel like making small talk. I mean that is how I feel now.
I do have to work on my camp stuff, it would be a good day to my self I think.
We'll see.
Monday: I am going to try not to sleep in. Work on getting my stuff together for the meeting. Unsure when I am going to Jacki's house. But we are going to eat first at Charlie Horse, then go to the meeting.
We are making coaster calendars. It should be fun. We always get home late, its just how late is using the question.
Tuesday: Nothing really planned yet. I will probably get my house ready for camp and make some last minute stuff for the camp. I am hoping to see some cute ideas at the meeting.
Wednesday: Camp Day. I am going to do everything in my power not to spend my whole day working on camp, It is such a waste of a day. I don't get compensated for that.
Camp starts at 6:00. When it ends I will try to clean up and get some time to myself before bed, so I can go to sleep and come back to this shit hole.
I have met his wife a couple times, they now have a daughter together, oh did I mention he is one of my first boyfriends. Its a little weird, I mean I was in eight grade and we made out alot, because that is what you do when you are that young.
We have no money and I don't know if I feel like making small talk. I mean that is how I feel now.
I do have to work on my camp stuff, it would be a good day to my self I think.
We'll see.
Monday: I am going to try not to sleep in. Work on getting my stuff together for the meeting. Unsure when I am going to Jacki's house. But we are going to eat first at Charlie Horse, then go to the meeting.
We are making coaster calendars. It should be fun. We always get home late, its just how late is using the question.
Tuesday: Nothing really planned yet. I will probably get my house ready for camp and make some last minute stuff for the camp. I am hoping to see some cute ideas at the meeting.
Wednesday: Camp Day. I am going to do everything in my power not to spend my whole day working on camp, It is such a waste of a day. I don't get compensated for that.
Camp starts at 6:00. When it ends I will try to clean up and get some time to myself before bed, so I can go to sleep and come back to this shit hole.
I want ice cream
I am having ice cream withdrawl.
I had some yesterday, wasn't that great. But I want my dads ice cream.
The store won't open until March. I usually stock up. But ice cream, especiall real ice cream, doesn't stay well in the freezer for long.
I will take a twist cone with twinkle cote on it. Thank you very much.
I had some yesterday, wasn't that great. But I want my dads ice cream.
The store won't open until March. I usually stock up. But ice cream, especiall real ice cream, doesn't stay well in the freezer for long.
I will take a twist cone with twinkle cote on it. Thank you very much.
Life happens
This is a quote that I have seen before and its true.
We have no idea what life has in store for us. Things happen good and bad.
A good thing could happen to you like winning lots of money, but it could turn you into a horrible person.
A bad thing could happen and change your life forever. Especially is you lose someone.
Life is not easy for anyone, rich or poor. I am sure there are poor people that are doing better then some rich people.
Life is a job. You come across people that affect your life in good and bad ways and you grow from it or it will eat you up. I am really good at going cold hearted and erasing people from my memory, That is the best way for me not to dwell on a situation. I come across people that can't do that and its weird to me. I just decide you don't exist anymore and move on.
Everyone deals with situations in different ways and for good reason. If we were all the same, we might as well be robots. There are no clear cut answers or reactions. Life takes time and care. I deal one day at a time now. I used to be obsessed with looking ahead, knowing whats going to happen before the hand is dealt. I don't do it as much. Because you never know how things are going to pan out.
I am an adult as much as I would love to stay a kid. I am no less of a person than anyone else is. I am dealing with my life in a manner that won't have me jumping of a bridge. Doubt is a as bad as lying in my book. I hate it and when people do it to me.
So moral of the story is Life Happens...and we get through it.
The End.
We have no idea what life has in store for us. Things happen good and bad.
A good thing could happen to you like winning lots of money, but it could turn you into a horrible person.
A bad thing could happen and change your life forever. Especially is you lose someone.
Life is not easy for anyone, rich or poor. I am sure there are poor people that are doing better then some rich people.
Life is a job. You come across people that affect your life in good and bad ways and you grow from it or it will eat you up. I am really good at going cold hearted and erasing people from my memory, That is the best way for me not to dwell on a situation. I come across people that can't do that and its weird to me. I just decide you don't exist anymore and move on.
Everyone deals with situations in different ways and for good reason. If we were all the same, we might as well be robots. There are no clear cut answers or reactions. Life takes time and care. I deal one day at a time now. I used to be obsessed with looking ahead, knowing whats going to happen before the hand is dealt. I don't do it as much. Because you never know how things are going to pan out.
I am an adult as much as I would love to stay a kid. I am no less of a person than anyone else is. I am dealing with my life in a manner that won't have me jumping of a bridge. Doubt is a as bad as lying in my book. I hate it and when people do it to me.
So moral of the story is Life Happens...and we get through it.
The End.
I thought I posted yesterday???
Whatever. So its early and cold out. I am glad that I am not outside.
I had to put gas in my car, I didn't want any gas line problems. My car was cold today. I think it wanted to say "are you kidding me" It was a little hesitant to start.
I am planning on trying to zone out. I have many thoughts going through my head about people in my life. I beginning to think this is normal for the last day of my period. All of the things that I store away in the back of my head come back for two days. I don't like it but it just means I will have to deal with stuff soon.
I will be here until 9:00, I think, Making my time up. The alarm went off but I was happy sleeping in my warm bed.
I need to look up ideas for my camp
I hope I can find a good movie to watch too.
I had to put gas in my car, I didn't want any gas line problems. My car was cold today. I think it wanted to say "are you kidding me" It was a little hesitant to start.
I am planning on trying to zone out. I have many thoughts going through my head about people in my life. I beginning to think this is normal for the last day of my period. All of the things that I store away in the back of my head come back for two days. I don't like it but it just means I will have to deal with stuff soon.
I will be here until 9:00, I think, Making my time up. The alarm went off but I was happy sleeping in my warm bed.
I need to look up ideas for my camp
I hope I can find a good movie to watch too.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Awesome...I just figured out...
my underwear are on inside out. I must be out of it today. I have also been to the bathroom 4 times and never noticed it. What the F.
So they will stay that way, until I get home.
Just some useless info to brighten your days.
So they will stay that way, until I get home.
Just some useless info to brighten your days.
Tired...need nap
I am tired. I could so take a nap. I have a couple of hours to go.
I have been searching the internet and it is boring me even more. I will probably try to watch something to keep my attention. I am talking to Jacki right now, still yawning. This is normal for today. I wish there is something I could do to help. I ate the oreos and drank coke. Hmmm.
I found a chocolate covered graham cracker, hooray.....sugar!!!!!!
I am now waking up a little.
I have been searching the internet and it is boring me even more. I will probably try to watch something to keep my attention. I am talking to Jacki right now, still yawning. This is normal for today. I wish there is something I could do to help. I ate the oreos and drank coke. Hmmm.
I found a chocolate covered graham cracker, hooray.....sugar!!!!!!
I am now waking up a little.
Lunch time
Egg salad sandwich
BBQ chips
Choclate pudding
I am not in the mood for it today, but I need to eat.
Hopefully No one will bother me, Yeah right.
I need my daily update of smut on E online.
Bye.
BBQ chips
Choclate pudding
I am not in the mood for it today, but I need to eat.
Hopefully No one will bother me, Yeah right.
I need my daily update of smut on E online.
Bye.
morning morning
Hello everyone. Just here eating my oatmeal, hoping that I won't hurt anyone today. This is quiet day. You all know this by now. Pretty much don't mess with me becuase I have no patience for the stupid things.
I have been trying to write this all morning. So I am tired. I slept but had the wierdest dream.
Get this:
It is 7:50am I am supposed to wake up. So I get out of bed and go into the living room. For some reason I open the front door. It is really bright out side and lots of noise. I see this navy colored van and quickly I close the front door. I am afraid of this van for some reason. Now as I go to the bedroom I always look at the basement light switch, it was on, it is suppossed to be off. I am now starting to realize I am still in a dream. Freaky huh. I used to get these years ago and I hate them. Because now I want out of this dream. So I go back into the bedroom knowing this. So I try to go back to sleep so I can come out of the dream. It is not working because the people in the van are in front of my bedroom window and I don't want them to see me. There is also an extra window behind my bed and it is really sunny out. This is freaking me out because I am done being stuck in this dream.
So the next thing I do is weird but I did it in the past when I had these dreams. I try to slap my self. But I hand is moving too slow. So Thank you alarm clock. As soon as it went off I came out of this stupid dream.
So I talked to Sarah and she doesn't have dreams like this. Does anyone have dreams like these?
I have been trying to write this all morning. So I am tired. I slept but had the wierdest dream.
Get this:
It is 7:50am I am supposed to wake up. So I get out of bed and go into the living room. For some reason I open the front door. It is really bright out side and lots of noise. I see this navy colored van and quickly I close the front door. I am afraid of this van for some reason. Now as I go to the bedroom I always look at the basement light switch, it was on, it is suppossed to be off. I am now starting to realize I am still in a dream. Freaky huh. I used to get these years ago and I hate them. Because now I want out of this dream. So I go back into the bedroom knowing this. So I try to go back to sleep so I can come out of the dream. It is not working because the people in the van are in front of my bedroom window and I don't want them to see me. There is also an extra window behind my bed and it is really sunny out. This is freaking me out because I am done being stuck in this dream.
So the next thing I do is weird but I did it in the past when I had these dreams. I try to slap my self. But I hand is moving too slow. So Thank you alarm clock. As soon as it went off I came out of this stupid dream.
So I talked to Sarah and she doesn't have dreams like this. Does anyone have dreams like these?
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
My new blog...
Is SU!'s new paper Berry Bliss see below. I just made my trades out of these colors and have the class with the paper on Wed. I really like this color combo right now. I will probably get sick of it by next week. So enjoy it while its around.
New week...
Sorry about the earlier blog wow I was pissed huh.
I am here at work and today went well.
I called security first thing in the morning and they said that Friday I was not hit. It did n't say anything about Sat or Wed. So I asked them to check the tapes for those days. We'll see.
Other than the random stupid questions that I get asked during the day, I am doing pretty well for my period week. I have to bring my food to work until I get paid again. Its not so bad, as long as I remember to make it.
I was able to get groceries for 2 weeks off of 28.00, I am getting too good at this. This whole bugdet thing. I would rather spend my usual amount, one of these days.
I also got a bunch of errands done on budget. Because you need toliet paper and paper towel.
On Sunday me and Jacki worked on our trades for our Monday meeting, we kicked ass. She is finished and I have to assemble a couple more pieces. I have a order coming in Friday so I can mess around with the stuff before my Wed. class. Thats good.
I really hope this week goes by fast, today is already over. I just have an hour left. I'll find something to do.
I balance my checkbook today, I haven't had it all written down for a month, thats a lot of writing. I got rid of all of my reciepts and stuff that needed to be shredded. I even clen all of the paper work out of my purse. On lunch I cleaned out the garbage in my car. I am in a cleaning mood. I don't want to deal with the clutter.
So that is my random thoughts, see ya
I am here at work and today went well.
I called security first thing in the morning and they said that Friday I was not hit. It did n't say anything about Sat or Wed. So I asked them to check the tapes for those days. We'll see.
Other than the random stupid questions that I get asked during the day, I am doing pretty well for my period week. I have to bring my food to work until I get paid again. Its not so bad, as long as I remember to make it.
I was able to get groceries for 2 weeks off of 28.00, I am getting too good at this. This whole bugdet thing. I would rather spend my usual amount, one of these days.
I also got a bunch of errands done on budget. Because you need toliet paper and paper towel.
On Sunday me and Jacki worked on our trades for our Monday meeting, we kicked ass. She is finished and I have to assemble a couple more pieces. I have a order coming in Friday so I can mess around with the stuff before my Wed. class. Thats good.
I really hope this week goes by fast, today is already over. I just have an hour left. I'll find something to do.
I balance my checkbook today, I haven't had it all written down for a month, thats a lot of writing. I got rid of all of my reciepts and stuff that needed to be shredded. I even clen all of the paper work out of my purse. On lunch I cleaned out the garbage in my car. I am in a cleaning mood. I don't want to deal with the clutter.
So that is my random thoughts, see ya
Saturday, January 12, 2008
You have got to be fucking kidding me...explicit
I got to work at 8:15. Went up to my car at 9:30 because I forgot my make-up bag.
What do I find, but a fucking dent in trunk. What the FUCK!!!! Are you reaLLY FUCKING SERIOUS. My car is a fucking target or something. So because I guess I am used to accidents my car is in by now. I was just in a little bit of shock. Tried to remember when I saw my trunk last. I don't think it happened today. Its not the right angle.
So I cussed a little when explaining it to co-workers. Then I called and spoke to security. I know they(casino) can't compensate me. But if someone hit and ran my mother fucking car I hope to god it is on tape, please, please be on tape so I can report your stupid fucking ass you mother fucking idiot. Hit and run is not a good thing on your insurance thats if you even have fucking insurance. I hope I get a license plate, are you fucking stupid there are cameras all around the garage. All we need is what your stupid car looks like. And surely we can find your license plate or even your fucking players card.
I really don't know where else my car would of been hit. I am trying to remember.
Thurs: Came to work parked on 4th floor. I remember parking next to Nasty a girl at work. I left briefly at 2:00ish to go to bank. Came back and parked back on 4th floor. I can't remember what side. I wouldn't of been in range to see the back of my car. And I leave its dark.
Fri: Came into work parked on the 4th floor again. This time I didn't leave at all. From 9:00 to 8:45 I didn't leave. Again I wouldn't of seen the back of my car.
Sat: I happen to park on the opposite side, so when I got off of the elevator this morning I was directly behind my car. And saw the big old wanker. Fucking Nice by the way.
I am so trying to be calm. I will be upset if its not on camera. Otherwise I don't know what the fuck I am going to do. I would have to talk to my insurance agent about it.
All I want to know is why. Why is this car a damn target for accidents.
I mean, have dings and huge dings in my door from idiotic fucking people who need to have some respect when opening doors.
I have a badly scratched up front bumper from Sarah before I got the car.
I have a scratched up bumper from an rear end accident on the highway. I only had the car a couple of months, that also caused the bumper to rattle, the psycho bitch didn't have insurance.
I have a huge dent on the left side passenger door. They somehow found me liable. So I got to pay for there damage too. Awesome. Oh and my alignment has been shit since then, it has just gotten worse.
Now I have a huge fucking dent in my trunk, it was a white car or problem some asshole or bitch in a stupid ass SUV. It is pretty high on my trunk. My bumper wasn't even touched.
So where do I park now. Everywhere I park there is a problem. I was joking with a co-worker and all that is left is my hood, is someone going to fall out of the sky and dent it. Maybe a bird or squirrel.
I am okay. I am not yelling out loud or anything. I have learned to stay calm. Thats all that I can do.
It helps to vent it out here first.
I am just trying to figure out who to call. HMMM probably Jacki she should be up.
Bye have a wonderful dent free day.
What do I find, but a fucking dent in trunk. What the FUCK!!!! Are you reaLLY FUCKING SERIOUS. My car is a fucking target or something. So because I guess I am used to accidents my car is in by now. I was just in a little bit of shock. Tried to remember when I saw my trunk last. I don't think it happened today. Its not the right angle.
So I cussed a little when explaining it to co-workers. Then I called and spoke to security. I know they(casino) can't compensate me. But if someone hit and ran my mother fucking car I hope to god it is on tape, please, please be on tape so I can report your stupid fucking ass you mother fucking idiot. Hit and run is not a good thing on your insurance thats if you even have fucking insurance. I hope I get a license plate, are you fucking stupid there are cameras all around the garage. All we need is what your stupid car looks like. And surely we can find your license plate or even your fucking players card.
I really don't know where else my car would of been hit. I am trying to remember.
Thurs: Came to work parked on 4th floor. I remember parking next to Nasty a girl at work. I left briefly at 2:00ish to go to bank. Came back and parked back on 4th floor. I can't remember what side. I wouldn't of been in range to see the back of my car. And I leave its dark.
Fri: Came into work parked on the 4th floor again. This time I didn't leave at all. From 9:00 to 8:45 I didn't leave. Again I wouldn't of seen the back of my car.
Sat: I happen to park on the opposite side, so when I got off of the elevator this morning I was directly behind my car. And saw the big old wanker. Fucking Nice by the way.
I am so trying to be calm. I will be upset if its not on camera. Otherwise I don't know what the fuck I am going to do. I would have to talk to my insurance agent about it.
All I want to know is why. Why is this car a damn target for accidents.
I mean, have dings and huge dings in my door from idiotic fucking people who need to have some respect when opening doors.
I have a badly scratched up front bumper from Sarah before I got the car.
I have a scratched up bumper from an rear end accident on the highway. I only had the car a couple of months, that also caused the bumper to rattle, the psycho bitch didn't have insurance.
I have a huge dent on the left side passenger door. They somehow found me liable. So I got to pay for there damage too. Awesome. Oh and my alignment has been shit since then, it has just gotten worse.
Now I have a huge fucking dent in my trunk, it was a white car or problem some asshole or bitch in a stupid ass SUV. It is pretty high on my trunk. My bumper wasn't even touched.
So where do I park now. Everywhere I park there is a problem. I was joking with a co-worker and all that is left is my hood, is someone going to fall out of the sky and dent it. Maybe a bird or squirrel.
I am okay. I am not yelling out loud or anything. I have learned to stay calm. Thats all that I can do.
It helps to vent it out here first.
I am just trying to figure out who to call. HMMM probably Jacki she should be up.
Bye have a wonderful dent free day.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Out of it
I am out of it today. I hate just being at work anymore. Even if there is nothing to do or crazy going on. I seriously do not have enough time in a week or persay my days off to get everything I want accomplished.
On my time off I was busy though.
Sunday: Woke up early(for me) drove to Channahon to drop an order off at a customers house. Visited Dennis parents for a couple of hours. Then went to my moms for dinner. I told myself to leave after dinner so I could get my errands done. Didn't happen. I printed some ideas up for SU! but thats about it. I did go and see my brothers new place. He moved in with his new girfriend. I didn't leave my moms until 9:00. Sucky but I got a free meal out of it.
Monday: I knew this day was going to be long. I had to wake up early to do some last minute shopping for Jacki. I got ready and drove to Channahon( if I knew this the day before I wouldn't of dropped off the order, but oh well) We did our X-mas. She got me some fun monkey footies that I love and a Greys Anatomy magazine I can't wait to read it I just haven't had time. I also got some other fun stuff. I got her a maternity shirt, that I was so glad that fit and she liked it so much she wore it all day. I also got her some other fun stuff.
We were off...
Starbucks - yummy drinks to start the day
Scrapbook Nook - drop off order
Ikea - first time for ne. I was in awe of all of the cool stuff- We went for jar and left with some more than that. We were there for awhile.
Buffalo Wild Wings - to kill time and eat before Diva Night. Server was stupid.
Diva Night - We get together at Connies house(our manager) and make fun projects. We had a good time. Afterwards we talked and had fun. We left late and got back to her house late. I didn't leave until 2:00am, just talking to her and Ed. I went to bed pretty late.
Tuesday - This was me and Dennis day. We didn't wake up until 1:00pm. We both got ready. I cleaned up the house. Then we went to Chilis, we had a gift card from my mom. We had a good meal. We ran some errands then vegged for the rest of the night.
Wednesday - I had to get camp together. I had to spiral bound my catalog and get a marker from Sarah. I was able to get my camp done and ready in time. Everyone came and I had a good camp. Watched TV ate McDonalds and went to bed.
Thats it. I wish I had more time.
On my time off I was busy though.
Sunday: Woke up early(for me) drove to Channahon to drop an order off at a customers house. Visited Dennis parents for a couple of hours. Then went to my moms for dinner. I told myself to leave after dinner so I could get my errands done. Didn't happen. I printed some ideas up for SU! but thats about it. I did go and see my brothers new place. He moved in with his new girfriend. I didn't leave my moms until 9:00. Sucky but I got a free meal out of it.
Monday: I knew this day was going to be long. I had to wake up early to do some last minute shopping for Jacki. I got ready and drove to Channahon( if I knew this the day before I wouldn't of dropped off the order, but oh well) We did our X-mas. She got me some fun monkey footies that I love and a Greys Anatomy magazine I can't wait to read it I just haven't had time. I also got some other fun stuff. I got her a maternity shirt, that I was so glad that fit and she liked it so much she wore it all day. I also got her some other fun stuff.
We were off...
Starbucks - yummy drinks to start the day
Scrapbook Nook - drop off order
Ikea - first time for ne. I was in awe of all of the cool stuff- We went for jar and left with some more than that. We were there for awhile.
Buffalo Wild Wings - to kill time and eat before Diva Night. Server was stupid.
Diva Night - We get together at Connies house(our manager) and make fun projects. We had a good time. Afterwards we talked and had fun. We left late and got back to her house late. I didn't leave until 2:00am, just talking to her and Ed. I went to bed pretty late.
Tuesday - This was me and Dennis day. We didn't wake up until 1:00pm. We both got ready. I cleaned up the house. Then we went to Chilis, we had a gift card from my mom. We had a good meal. We ran some errands then vegged for the rest of the night.
Wednesday - I had to get camp together. I had to spiral bound my catalog and get a marker from Sarah. I was able to get my camp done and ready in time. Everyone came and I had a good camp. Watched TV ate McDonalds and went to bed.
Thats it. I wish I had more time.
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Unprotected Sleep...its so true
I heard about this from Jacki and searched it and found a definition in the urban dictionary.
unprotected sleep:
Turning off your alarm clock, whether consciously or unconsciously, and falling back asleep, sometimes causing you to be late for your work, school, test and/or exam, doctors appointment, or any other task that is of importance.
90% of the time I am unconsciously doing this. It is so weird. But my sleeping mind tells me its okay to turn off the alarm or reset the alarm or just hit it for an hour.
Today I woke up found that I had been hitting snooze for at least a half an hour, not knowing.
Then I decide to turn off the alarm and get up. Well I turned the alarm off but never got up. So I wake up around 7:00 ish and start adding my hours for the day. This gets me in trouble I am too tired to figure this out so at 8:15 the time I should be walking out the door I roll out of bed, why, because I thought I still had an hour. What the hell.
This has been happening for awhile, my biggest reason for not jumping out of bed is, if I move around too fast I get a horrible stomachache and late for other reasons. I hate that I have a sensitive stomach.
I also am so dead tired when waking up. I just want to sleep. I work these horrible stupid hours. so I really don't get much sleep. I love my sleep.
-"If people were meant to pop out of bed we'd all sleep in toasters". -Garfield comic
I have this stuck to my desk.
unprotected sleep:
Turning off your alarm clock, whether consciously or unconsciously, and falling back asleep, sometimes causing you to be late for your work, school, test and/or exam, doctors appointment, or any other task that is of importance.
90% of the time I am unconsciously doing this. It is so weird. But my sleeping mind tells me its okay to turn off the alarm or reset the alarm or just hit it for an hour.
Today I woke up found that I had been hitting snooze for at least a half an hour, not knowing.
Then I decide to turn off the alarm and get up. Well I turned the alarm off but never got up. So I wake up around 7:00 ish and start adding my hours for the day. This gets me in trouble I am too tired to figure this out so at 8:15 the time I should be walking out the door I roll out of bed, why, because I thought I still had an hour. What the hell.
This has been happening for awhile, my biggest reason for not jumping out of bed is, if I move around too fast I get a horrible stomachache and late for other reasons. I hate that I have a sensitive stomach.
I also am so dead tired when waking up. I just want to sleep. I work these horrible stupid hours. so I really don't get much sleep. I love my sleep.
-"If people were meant to pop out of bed we'd all sleep in toasters". -Garfield comic
I have this stuck to my desk.
Friday, January 4, 2008
Things that make me happy...
1. Love, being loved and loving someone else.
2. Food, mmm. I love food it makes my tummy happy which in turn makes me happy.
Best food right now is Cheescake Factory's "Navajo" love it.
3. Laughing, I love to laugh and joke around. I can usually turn anything funny.
4. Goofing off. This make me do number 3. I am a goof ball and don't care who sees sometimes.
5. Cussing, this is offensive to some people, but it make me happy, why i don't know. But my sentences definatly use them.
6. Family, without the drama. We all laugh so hard sometimes over the stupidest stuff. I absolutly hate the drama though.
7. Mia, Angel, and Bailey. The fact that they know who I am and talk to me is so cool. Well Mia is starting to talk. I don't know why it is so surprising to me. But it makes me feel good that I am something in their lives. And they have no idea that they are doing that.
8. People watching, me and sarah do this. We should have a show like Joan and Melissa Rivers. We don't do this to make our selves feel any prettier. We just like to comment on fashion good or bad.
9. Having control, not psycho control, just being a leader, doing my own thing.
10. My attitude, I would not be me without it, I would be pretty bland, which I have been feeling lately. It is me, comes with the territory.
2. Food, mmm. I love food it makes my tummy happy which in turn makes me happy.
Best food right now is Cheescake Factory's "Navajo" love it.
3. Laughing, I love to laugh and joke around. I can usually turn anything funny.
4. Goofing off. This make me do number 3. I am a goof ball and don't care who sees sometimes.
5. Cussing, this is offensive to some people, but it make me happy, why i don't know. But my sentences definatly use them.
6. Family, without the drama. We all laugh so hard sometimes over the stupidest stuff. I absolutly hate the drama though.
7. Mia, Angel, and Bailey. The fact that they know who I am and talk to me is so cool. Well Mia is starting to talk. I don't know why it is so surprising to me. But it makes me feel good that I am something in their lives. And they have no idea that they are doing that.
8. People watching, me and sarah do this. We should have a show like Joan and Melissa Rivers. We don't do this to make our selves feel any prettier. We just like to comment on fashion good or bad.
9. Having control, not psycho control, just being a leader, doing my own thing.
10. My attitude, I would not be me without it, I would be pretty bland, which I have been feeling lately. It is me, comes with the territory.
Made my decision
I am not living my life for anyone anymore. This pertains to everyone. I really don't know why I have been blinded for the last year or two. With people making me feel like lesser than a person. I said changes would be made and back to the old me I am going. I need to just live my life to the fullest. I guess that is a resolution for the year. A lot of changes and major things are going to happen this year. I can't put a grasp on them now because they are too big. But I wish everyone would realize that everyone in the world is different. We all have our flaws, we all make decisions in their own way, and just because someone doesn't react in the same manner that you do, doesn't make them a bad person. I need to rise above. Whatever talk about me, no one truly knows me so I'm over it. Not even family. God I have felt like garbage and mush and fuck that shit I am done. So I am glad to have a goal of some sort I guess.
I woke up happy and listened to the radio someone was talking about something that triggered all of this.
I am done with this job, i know that much, fuck these people, including my boss. I am so close to losing my mind with him. And when and if I do. He will be all pouting and shit. Its a new year fuckers and I am off to go on with my life. I can't believe he had the nerve to call me a "lifer" in your fucking dreams. This place will be interesting when I am gone. i don't know what i am looking for or how hard it is going to be to find another job that pays more than here. But it is a another goal I would like to accomplish.
I think it is this place but my chest hurts and is a little tight, just stress. I don't want to feel it. I want to just chill out and be left alone to my thoughts.
I really can't wait for lunch, I am definitely leaving. I need time to think everything out. I will try to do that on my days off.
I woke up happy and listened to the radio someone was talking about something that triggered all of this.
I am done with this job, i know that much, fuck these people, including my boss. I am so close to losing my mind with him. And when and if I do. He will be all pouting and shit. Its a new year fuckers and I am off to go on with my life. I can't believe he had the nerve to call me a "lifer" in your fucking dreams. This place will be interesting when I am gone. i don't know what i am looking for or how hard it is going to be to find another job that pays more than here. But it is a another goal I would like to accomplish.
I think it is this place but my chest hurts and is a little tight, just stress. I don't want to feel it. I want to just chill out and be left alone to my thoughts.
I really can't wait for lunch, I am definitely leaving. I need time to think everything out. I will try to do that on my days off.
Thursday, January 3, 2008
What the F AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
How many times is this gonna happen before my head literally explodes.
Stop spraying my mother fucking desk with endust.
I just fucking cleaned my desk yesterday. I go to the fucking bathroom for 3 seconds and I come back to a greasy ass desk. Mother Fucker. Can you tell I am just a little pissed off. I want to clean the nasty off of my desk, but they are in here still.
Another thing, take the perfume down a couple of notched. I really don't want to be mean, but can you smell at all. Did you bath in it before you came in.
So this is about 30 mins later. I feel better not so crazy. I asked by boss to tell them only to do the floors and garbage. Thank god. I mean taking the vaccum extension to all of our computer lines and connection to the casino. Not a good idea. They just went a little overboard. I appreciate the effort. Wheww.
Now back to work.
Stop spraying my mother fucking desk with endust.
I just fucking cleaned my desk yesterday. I go to the fucking bathroom for 3 seconds and I come back to a greasy ass desk. Mother Fucker. Can you tell I am just a little pissed off. I want to clean the nasty off of my desk, but they are in here still.
Another thing, take the perfume down a couple of notched. I really don't want to be mean, but can you smell at all. Did you bath in it before you came in.
So this is about 30 mins later. I feel better not so crazy. I asked by boss to tell them only to do the floors and garbage. Thank god. I mean taking the vaccum extension to all of our computer lines and connection to the casino. Not a good idea. They just went a little overboard. I appreciate the effort. Wheww.
Now back to work.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Happy New Year
It really just feels like another day to me. Everyone has their resolutions that usually never make it past the first month. But they always sound good...right.
I don't think its a bad thing to start your year off fresh. But I am alreasy sick of the commercials for losing weight. I am actually glad I cancelled mine. Everyone and their mom signs up and you can't get a machine if you wanted. So If I sign up again it won't be for awhile.
Me and Dennis spent New Years Eve together at home and I got really drunk. I don't really drink much, but I had a couple too many rum and cokes. Its pretty bad when you throw up at the end of the night. We did have alot of fun though. I had an urge to run into the snow from the garage in my bare feet and scraped up two of my toes, ouch. I broke a glass against the recliner, unsure of how I did that. It was dark though. Oh and the next day did I feel like shit. I threw up four times. I laid on the couch all day. I am done drinking for the year. I am figuring out that I am not 21 anymore, but I did enjoy trying to feel that young, minus all of the bad things.
So I have no resolutions as of yet. It has been a crazy year and its not worth going into and I am glad it is over.
I did some fun things: Like skiing for the first time, trip to Champaign for Stampin up, Saw Drew Davis in concert a couple of times (first country music show), Mia's 1st birthday, met Derek Lee, Trip to Long Grove with the girls, Took a long vacation for my birthday had fun with many people.
This year has a lot to bring but I live day by day for now. Don't want to overload myself.
I don't think its a bad thing to start your year off fresh. But I am alreasy sick of the commercials for losing weight. I am actually glad I cancelled mine. Everyone and their mom signs up and you can't get a machine if you wanted. So If I sign up again it won't be for awhile.
Me and Dennis spent New Years Eve together at home and I got really drunk. I don't really drink much, but I had a couple too many rum and cokes. Its pretty bad when you throw up at the end of the night. We did have alot of fun though. I had an urge to run into the snow from the garage in my bare feet and scraped up two of my toes, ouch. I broke a glass against the recliner, unsure of how I did that. It was dark though. Oh and the next day did I feel like shit. I threw up four times. I laid on the couch all day. I am done drinking for the year. I am figuring out that I am not 21 anymore, but I did enjoy trying to feel that young, minus all of the bad things.
So I have no resolutions as of yet. It has been a crazy year and its not worth going into and I am glad it is over.
I did some fun things: Like skiing for the first time, trip to Champaign for Stampin up, Saw Drew Davis in concert a couple of times (first country music show), Mia's 1st birthday, met Derek Lee, Trip to Long Grove with the girls, Took a long vacation for my birthday had fun with many people.
This year has a lot to bring but I live day by day for now. Don't want to overload myself.
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