I will always remember....

September 11th 2001...

I was living at home sleeping from working the night shift @ the casino. I was woken up by my mother who told me a plane had gone through a building in New York.(I had no idea what the World Trade buildings were) So my first thought, and I do feel bad for this, is anger. I was sleeping, I just wanted to sleep. So my mom can be a little bit of a worry wort. So I didn't think anything of her being a little neurotic about this situation. My mom came back in my room and turned my TV on, she said "somethings not right" She had a feeling and we found out very quickly her feeling was right on.

I unlike most people was home watching the second plane crash into the second tower. I watched it all live and those images will never go away. I remember being scared but I had been controlling myself. No one knew at the time who or why this was happening.

I was sitting on my bed in my room watching my little TV. I heard a loud explosion and down went the first tower. Holy shit, the media reported that a bomb had gone off inside this building. Thats all I could take. I started balling. My mom had no idea I was totally freaking out. But it only got worse knowing that other planes had gone missing and when the Pentagon was hit and another crashed on its way to the White House. Yeah I was definitely awake now.

Heres the thing, where I live is surrounded by nuclear plants and Mobil oil. We are in the red and yellow zones if there is ever a problem. I was scared shitless. I had gotten a hold of Dennis and my mom got a hold of Darryl and Sarah. We were all accounted for but we weren't all together and that messed with me. There was a sense not knowing whats next.

The most disrespectful thing I remember that morning/afternoon was the next door neighbor coming over to sell candles. Are you shitting me. I don't want to sniff your effing candles lady. People are dead and dying and the whole world just changed forever and you want me to buy candles. Believe me I went as far as wondering if we would be around to even receive these candles.

Unfortunately the other details of the day are foggy so I need to talk to my mom and Dennis and see where i fit into there stories.

I really feel for any family that was affected by this tragedy.

I know that I will always remember....................