I am trying not to be worried about the fact that I wasn't able to get many gifts this year for anyone. I know that I am ok with it, but I don't want to be. I love to buy gifts during x-mas. And I used to spend my share of money. Last year was tight but I was able to spend at least $50.00 a person. I not even gonna say how much I had to use this year. :(
So it goes though my head throughout the day. Over that
My sister and mom got into to it at Steak n Shake last week, Sarah got pissed and left. My mom tried to pull the mom card she told her to "sit down and shut up" Not cool. What the hell was she thinking, before x-mas. So my mom thinks things are good but Sarah doesn't. So I am sure it is going to be weird.
I am not sure what Dennis is doing for X-mas. I know that sounds weird. But his neice is in so he will probably be there more which doesn't bother me too much. I don't like being rushed or sometimes he is ready to leave and I am not. So we take seperate cars. I have a Allen family get together that we go to every year, I asked him and he wasn't sure. X-mas eve is with my dad usually he doesn't go. and x-mas day with my mom. He would come over to open his gift and sometimes eat but not really. Money is tight with all of us this year so I don't know what he is even getting from my family??? Sarah and Dennis haven't seen each other since the last x-mas party. I am sick of that whole situation.
I need to make some more gifts and wrap the rest. I need to take back some things but I was just thinking about it and I might not because the money won't go back into the account automatically I don't think. Whatever. I do have a Pier One card to use for gifts too. I will do that Sunday all long with everything else.
I finally have the whole holiday off and it better go good. Right now I am not feeling so good about it.
Heres the delima : Xmas party on 23rd. I have nothing to talk about. What did I do this year, nothing really. What I am going to do nothing. I can't forsee the future right now. Only immediate family knows Dennis is going into the Service. I am a good listener. So that makes me sad. But I will get through it.
My dads should be fun. We just cook eat and watch TV. No gifts really.
My moms, who knows. Hopefully mom doesn't run her mouth too much. I know my sister is dreading it too. I was talking to my mom and she wanted to know what I was bringing. I said i'm broke. She wants me to do the green bean cassarole. I told her I have some things for it. I guess she'll get the rest. She also said she didn't want to sit around until 12:00pm for us to get there. Whats the fucking rush. We all live far away. What about what we want. So she wants us to stay the night. I don't mind. I don't think its gonna fly with Sarah.
Me and Dennis won't do x-mas until next week probably.
I want to enjoy my time off and that is what I am going to do. End of story.\
I am not in the mood for drama.
2 comments:
Hey Jenn...you are in good company this year...money is tight for us too. I didn't spend as much as I usually do and at first I was upset about it. I enjoy giving gifts and having fun with the giving. So it is a new thing for me. But anyway, it will be all right. You will enjoy your time off. Maybe you will get to play with some stamps and do some things you like - even if it's just hanging out and doing nothing. Holidays are SO stressful. Families never behave like we want them to. Sometimes I think if we could just have PICK our families things would go much better. Go figure.
hang in there. It's only one day (or a couple) in the year. (At least that's what I tell myself!!! LOL!)
Yes I think Theresa summed it up pretty good. Ed and me started buying for our families back in August knowing money was going to be tough, the appendix payments and dog knee tapped into Christmas a little too.
It is just a few days, then Wednesday it is all over (except your Christmas with me!) and you have a whole year until you have to deal with the holidays again.
I guess everyone wants it to be perfect, and so do we. But with no money, and insane family members, that makes it kinda hard.
I'm just glad my asshole uncle dosen't show up anymore. Sigh. Merry effing Christmas!
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